Inside My Mind

To Mull Over

It occurs to me that I am a thinker.  I think about things much more than most people, especially my husband.  He is a doer, he thinks then he does.  I think, feel, evaluate, reflect, examine, unearth then ponder some more.  My sons are both, one thinks too much, the other not enough….strange, and I will have to think about that at a later time.

Thinking about things is time consuming.  Your day can quickly unravel while you ponder the scope and consequences of any given task.  But in my mind, no event, task, question, emotion is exempt from deep evaluation.

Ponder is the word I prefer.  It sounds better to say you are pondering something than simply thinking about it.  To ponder signifies deep introspection, a desire to grasp the entirety of the situation, not just skim the details.

My grandmother would say she is studying on it.  As kids, we would ask Grannie if we could walk to the corner store by ourselves, or go to the movies, or play in the woods.  She would reply, “I’ll study on it.”  We were never sure how long it would take Grannie to study on it, but we knew the answer would not be instantaneous.  So we would lose interest and do something else, which come to think of it was probably Grannie’s plan all along!

As I have gotten older, there is a bit more time to sit and ponder.  It has become one of my favorite things to do.  I believe that is why I love photographs so much.  You can look at a picture and remember everything about the event, the sounds, smells, laughs, tears.  I can look at a picture I know nothing about, and my mind will invent an entire scenario, literally creating the past, present and future of the person or thing in the photo.

Did you know there are organizations called “Think Tanks” where people actually work.  I can only ponder what a great job that must be……….

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